This is the next best thing to running away. I'm leaving behind these memories at broken-lines.lj.

If you can find me, claps for you.

There's always that one person that will always have your heart.

What happened to our love, it used to be so good.

Apparently, a few more still won't cut it.

Each person we let ourselves care about is just one more loss somewhere down the line.

I love it when I'm busy, 'cause my mind would be focused and not running wild.

I've made a decision. Don't be surprised if I just up and leave. I have no qualms about it. 'Cause I just can't keep on lying to myself, yknow. It's just that something you hear triggers something inside of you. And that song made me think, "What the hell. Why am I doing this to myself again. No, absolutely no."



So that's what I'm gonna do. No regrets. It'll be like as though nothing happened, and we are just strangers.

It's been a long time since I've last felt this way. And I can't say that I miss it. But the sense of comfort and security is still there. It took me some time to realise, but it's right there. So, I guess that's your answer.

I think I'm suffering from withdrawal symptoms of camp):

My mind is in a mess right now.

It wasn't long enough together,
but it was long enough to last forever.

Unit Camp is over ): Mygoosh, our last camp as a platoon. I went crazy with the camera and took 300+ shots. Hrr, I bet MT's gonna have a hard time sieving out all the proper pictures from all my nonsense ones.

K, I'm tiredbired.

Though you’re gone, you’re still here.
In my heart, in my tears.
Yeah, you sure left your mark and
we were just getting started.

Promised myself that I'll write more on OAC, so yeah.

Our fourth and final camp, the third that we're planning. There's so much to say but they just can't be expressed in words. The OAL board is really a wonderful thing. What other board bonds so many different types of people? The OALs/OAIs are a mix of quiet, loud leaders who don't care whether we are from UGs or Netball or Guzheng or AV. We all just click. And I'm proud to say that I can talk/joke/crap with ANYONE from the board. Even those whom I really didn't know during OAC 08 (eg Vanessa and Andeline) Look where we are now. I seriously believe that we bring out the best in each other, and I'm so grateful for that.

During OAC 08, I felt like a failure. I think all the then-OAIs did. 'Cause we were the first batch of OAIs who did not go through that much of a boot camp for COALs. We felt demoralised that we could never be as great as the previous batches. At first, I wanted it to go back to the hierarchy and all. But MP made us realise that we did not have to be fierce and demanding to have a successful camp. MP made us remember the true reason for COALs and OAC. To bond the Cedarians, and for us leaders to leave our mark in Cedar. I believe that our batch of OALs 09 really did. If not on the campers, the Instructors. If not on the Instructors, it was definitely on MP. That was the first time I actually saw tears and real emotion and I know she was truly touched when we sang the song for her.

To all the Leaders, I really love each and every single one of you(: We made it through all 4 camps. We are such a unique batch, we were the revolution of the OAL board and I'm not exaggerating. From Maintenance Friends, to EXOBS (pronounced as AEG-ZORBS), and Kitchen Maids(: The satisfaction I feel after every single camp is just (: To know that all our hard work paid off 'cause we see the smiles on our campers and MP. To feel that I would do the whole thing all over again, even though it means late nights infront of the computers and getting too tired to focus on anything else. From endless washing of toilets, to belaying like crazy and getting headaches 'cause of all the mixed up logists at LAC, and cleaning the dining hall and making chrysanthemum tea/milo for the OALs/OAIs. I would do that again. Just put the 28 other OALs beside me, and I'll do anything. The company that you have with you really makes a difference. I'm sure that the OAL board wouldn't have the same impact on me if we were segregated, and there were cliques. For our batch, there's none, and I know MP loves that about us, 'cause she said that many times.

To the Instructors, though you still have much to learn, I know that all of you can be another successful batch and you can pass it on to the Sec 2s and the chain just keeps getting longer and longer. Make MP proud, and make her feel a sense of achievement for all that she has done for the board. Though I know that the bond for all of you is still not that strong, I'm sure it will by the end of COALs 09. 'Cause that's YOUR SHOW, everything is on you. And I'm sure you won't let MP down. I can't wait for the Campfire Night. Instructors 09, you really do make us proud and we are truly blown away(:

Mygoosh, I'll really miss everyone. Though we'll obviously see each other in school, it's not the same as being in a camp together, where you depend on one another to look out for you and help you. Hrr, I think OAC 09 made me a makcik. I was making milo and chrysanthemum tea for everyone. Forcing people to eat and making sure that they eat alot (esp Mar and Min) Our last store check was (: Perfect ending. The OALs' mini campfire with Lydia's fire, playing, feeding people the Happy Biscuits(:

COALs 08 and OAC 09 was the best. Thanks to everyone who had a part in it. (Inc Grace, Wen Min and Nasuha) Esp the ICs of both camps.
Amanda Low and Alicia Cheong. Noone could have done a better job for making COALs a success.
And of course, Afiqah, Danae and May. Best choice for OAC 09. I'm really grateful for all that you've done to make OAC a memorable last camp for all Leaders(:

OAL BOARD IS LOVED BY DIANA ADNAN(:

Hr, I spent more than half an hour writing all this down!

Miss Poon's taken us from Changi to Labrador
We'll be waiting for COALs Camp to come again.
Then we can all see the new batch of leaders.
It's a living legacy, baby, just say yes.

I wonder if you know how we feed the OA Board.
Dumping veggies, making milo, force them all to eat some more.
Kitchen De-ept!
Eat, eat, eat!

I just woke up from a 14-hour sleep. From 1930-0930 hrs. Was only interrupted at like random times to answer annoying people's messages, hahaha, and waking up from weird dreams :/

OAC was (: Ahh, words can't describe the feeling. Not only did I cry during Campfire Night, I cried 4 more times. K, private post!